Friday, March 23, 2012
Something Has to Change
Over the past 6 months, I've seriously considered transitioning to natural. Between my getting older, and my hair getting longer, I just don't like how thin my hair looks, even when it's in a healthy state. Even when my stylist using a mild relaxer, my hair just comes out too straight for my taste. Maybe I'll try self-texlaxing in about a month, when I'm at least 12 weeks post relaxer, but I really want to stretch it out and figure out how to manage my new growth. I've had a relaxer since I was 13, and I would like to see what my real texture is like. I'm sure it's changed, AND since I wasn't properly conditioning my hair when I was younger, I don't know if I ever knew what my texture was. All I know is that I cannot and will not continue to abuse my hair with a bone straight relaxer. My mother, her sister, and my aunts on my father's side have all said that their hair just couldn't take relaxers at some point.
The other night I talked to my girlfriend who has been natural for quite a while now. She wears weaves mostly, but lets her natural hair out every couple of months or so. She is really encouraging, even if I don't want to wear my natural hair the way she wears hers. I know that this will be a new journey for me- physically and mentally. I also know that I'll probably have to start over with most of my products and tools. On one hand, I'm scared and worried, but on the other hand, I know that if I take care of my hair properly and listen to what it needs, I will have such a better head of hair. Also, even though I only go to the salon for relaxers and trims, I would save so much money and time being a complete DIYer. I hate going to the salon. I am hardly ever happy with how my hair looks after I leave, and I feel like I'm wasting precious time when I could be doing other things.